Lanyon, Walter (n.d.). London Notes and Lectures. L.N. Fowler & Co. pg. 125.
Suicide was such an energy attached to me in this life I believe there is a karmic attachment from a past life suicide. This life for me was challenging & difficult and suicide was the illusion I clung to; the illusion that I could escape life and be free. Through many dark nights, feeble suicide attempts that seem like pathetic attempts for attention in hindsight, and many years wishing I could pull the trigger, I have come to the inner acceptance that suicide is never the answer. That deeper inner self, the core of our being is life itself; life is experiencing itself through us. This is why suicide can never actually work; life cannot experience death. The spirit that experiences suicide must find the strength within to overcome the illusion that they couldn’t come through whatever made them pull the the trigger. “Nothing is impossible to spirit.” Even the illusion of escaping life can be transmuted; sculpting a brand new identity and life of true power. We are far more powerful than we could ever imagine ourselves to be. ✨